Not once

 Not once in 5 years

Did you apologize
Or Express remorse of any kind
I've racked my brain
Looking for a single example
And came up with nothing
For 5 years you showed me
Exactly how entitled you felt
With your condescending tone
Your constant frustration
Your belittling and criticizing
All the credit you took
For my accomplishments
For 5 years you tore me down
At every opportunity
Rubbing my nose in every failure
Never missing a chance
To tell me how I deserved
To be treated that way
How your lack of affection
Was my fault
That the price was more
Than I could afford
It took 5 years for me to see
Exactly how conditional
Your love is
When I needed a hug
You criticized me
When I came home from work
And expected a kiss
You told me how unhappy you were
Or how gross I was
You told me how you
Didn't want to touch me
Every time I just wanted to hold you
Or cuddle
You said you didn't want to have sex
You told me that all intimacy
Was sexual
I couldn't touch you
Without you assuming
I wanted sex